i dont think that ive ever been given the cold shoulder untill just in the recent days. when u start talking to someone..conversations happen you laugh, you fall asleep together on the phone when it gets late. unless of course you pretend to fall asleep and then stay online in order to continue what u were doing as sleep is a plausible cover to get rid of the person you really dont want to talk to... haha ive used it once or twice before...never did i see my tactic being used against me.. i mean im not boring, i may get a bit nervous on the phone...but by no means boring.. so it burns to find out that someone is not answering text, myspace messages or for that matter phone calls. id appreciate a reason for me being ostracized. unfortunately thats not gonna happenso if ur wondering expactly what this rant is all about...(it may be hard to follow so far becasue there really isnt much structure in the previous run-ons) I met this girl online..she added me on her myspace...we started talking on aim for a day or two... then she gave me her phone number..we talked for a number of days. i mentioned to her that i was planning a trip to florida in the upcoming weeks and id like to know if she'd like to grab dinner. well let me backup first i said that id be coming in may. she told me she was going home in may. i said that was too bad and that i would try to schedule earlier. so i did. i submitted leave for this week.. i told her that id be in town for this upcoming weekend...her instant response was that she was going home because her dad was making her take her car into the shop....but the thing is that her dad lives in ft lauderdale.. so hes picking up the car to get it fixed in a shop a hundred miles awaylol sorry i just googled it.. its 212 miles. so that didnt make sense..
i asked when she was coming back into town. she said monday. i told her we could still have dinner on monday. she said she'd see if she could getr off of work.. im willing to bet that she wont be able to... see id rather women be forward.. no i dont want to go out with you. is that so hard to say. it would make things much less complicated. but whatever...im just waiting for that. ill know tomorrow.

i cant believe i actually did thsi, i met somegirl online got her number called her on a regular occasion and thought that she was genuinely interested in me. after all she lives only an hour from me in tampa. but the moment i ask if she wants to have dinner. shot down. no aim responses hurried phone calls and no acknowledgment to messages.
but no attachment

thats good..

ok so i am the motherfucking king...i pulled a pretty good prank on Mark on Saturday with the commisioned help of Miss Ashley as well as Miss Shanna Mello. Wow I cant get over how amazing ashley looked.. i mean damn.. i tried to make sure i didnt turn anyhting too awkward like i tend to do... but again wow. i didnt talk to her much but ohh well. actually most of my conv time was spent with melanie...she appaerntl actully who gives a fuck....melanie likes the weirdest most 'disgusting' people ever.. so i wont bore u with her bullshit. so the bottom line is that unfortunately i still have a 'thing' for ashley...along with half of my friends.. so that sucks..but the daytrip to fla was well worth the hours of driving...we did alot in just a day and a half...i shoowed johnson the beach in datona...the motorspeedway, he saw a ferrari and HOT bitches everywhere..got a tast of what we floridians like to do for fun...the only bad thing is that i really didnt get to spend anytime with my familt at all i saw my mom for like ten minutes total and i didnt even get to see my sisters at all. :/

i have to make sure that somehow i find a way to see them both before i leave for korea....cause its gonna be harder than a botch to get over here during a tour in korea.

its hardly the answer one would expect when asking someone to dinner and a movie. but its what mealine wrote to me. well its not a 100 percent sure, but i dont know who else qould qwrite that, plus i think she knows that i had a ccrush on her in high schoole cause ive been the only one to rep;y to her honesly box in the [ast copuple weeks. but whatever. i guess im not going back to fla again. maybe for my 21st.

melanie broke up with blaine yesterday. can you believ it> its the first time in over five years that this girl has been single. im not going to lie i have thought about hooking up with her before but i foreseehgbv problems if i even try an attempt at that right now. so while she trollops around brandon enjoying her newly acquired singularity ill be waiting here just as i have for the past five and a half years

i just got back from dinner with jenna. we went to this vegan place off of florida ave.it was amazing. but we were very stupud. we started off with drinks. she had the hibiscus tea and i had the carrot juice. she got a miso soup(i didnt care for it) and i got a root sushi appetizer to start with, but they thought that we were finished!! we were waiting for half an hour for the food to arrive and we didnt even order!! but we finnally got our order taken i had parmesan and spaghetti abnd jenna had a raw spaghetti and treat balls.i enjoyed her treat balls . i would date her, if only i wanst so far away and if only she didnt smoke pot.what am i saying.. if only she liked me....

ok so i asked debbie to go out. no va. she said something about going salsa dancing and getting 30 other guys numbers, all of whom she has no intention of calling back. i had some trouble understanding half of what she said but, oh well, i think it said somehting about the saying " the way to a womans heart is through waffles" and then she said, i cant tell if its a sarcastic statement or not, "it definately isnt saying. haha." but she did tell me to learn and then to take her. so i dont know. maybe its a go but she is really hard to read.

why is it that i find the religious nuts? i mean having a good moral compass is a very good qua;lity to find in a woman but, Christianity, Islam, Judaism, these religions are not moral compasses they are routes to violence, persecution, intolerance, and genocide. in fact they are the polar to a moral compass. and i am absolutely dumbfounded as how followers to all of these said religions can follow a book written by a man so blindly, without question, and objection. i have asked the hard questions and the simple ones. but the one questiion that gives me the most baffling answer is " how can you believe every word you read in the bible/torah/koran without question. they were written by a man, if not by one man then worse, dozens. how can you put your trust into somethong like that. its not holy, its not divine. it was not etched into stone by lightning and brought down from a mountain. it has been written translated, edited, and misinterpreted for hundreds of generations. " they give me one answer. faith. and when i ask for concrete proof so that i may believe as they believe.... they shun me and quote some scripture. and they emphasize how gods plan cannot be understood by us feeble little humans. and how our human way of thinking is what prevents us from understanding. it saddens me just as much as it angers them.

to day i went to columbia to clainm my prize. i won 30 bucks but they suckered me into purchasing a retirement plan. i really hope that this place didnt just scam me. but its easy enough to cut them off. the way they explained to me it that for one year i pack away 150 dollars a month and 90 dollars per month go to pay for a life insurance plan. and 60 permonth goes to an investment fund. and after te one year it gets flopped and 90 goes to the investemt plan and 60 to the life insurance, they told me that i ca borrow against it, and that it is realatively liquid, there is a 5% early withdrawl fee. and supposedly it is tax deffered. so that mean that after ten yearsof compounded interest ill have money. hopefully. and i told melanie about tdebbie calling me a stalker and she said 'what a weirdo, she was telling everyone that you were soooo cute.whatevv.'

girls are stupid.

well this past thanksgiving was quite a weekend. first i went o mr richards hoise and had dinner it was nice, he did alot of talking and it was good to listen. waybe he taalked for a little bit too much but he meant well.on thursday steveo and mark came by my house and decided to employ my superior hunking skills in assisting with the great armadillo hunt of 2007. unfortuanately all i displayed was my superior drinking skills. and we turned up empty handed...as far as armadillos go.

the following friday mealine and i went out, we went shopping at the mall and wewere stuck at charlotte russe for four hours waiting in line so that meanie could get a keychain but she didnt they forgot because all the registers were down and they were a litttle pre occupied. hahah. then after that she bought some waling shoes and we went to busch gardens. it was a little disappointing though cause it was gfetting dark and all of the animals were retiring. but the skyride was fun and melanie lot her bumper car virginity. i made her drive. after that i went to bed.

that saturday, melanie wanted to hang out so we went to mimis cafe and had a quick bite to eat. i made palns with young to go see a movie but it turned out that he and luis werent under that impression so we sat back for a bit and played a bit of gears of war untill they decidd to spark up at which point i left. i called melanie and picked her up, we drove to mellos place and waited for steven to make drinks. he failed so i just had melanie make me a few. i thinkn that they must have been a littl etoo strong for me because i was noticeably drunk. things were going well untill she showed up again. and i froze just like i always do. she always does it to me. whay, idk, so anyways, my natural reaction was to just ignare her completely, like i always do. we made eye contact a few times and both times i would nervously look away. i tried to have melanie, stay along by to repel her( she has an uncanny skill in repelling girls) it worked but then somehow her and mello got to talking and i got caught up in it then mello was hanging all on me with tears in her eyes. and it was weird, anyways, someone got ahold of her and melanie reminded me that we needed to get her back so debbie decided to tag along as a safety observer i believe and melanie drove to her place in valrico and debbie drove us back. i told her to stop at a waffle house so we could get something to eat. she would talk and i would listen attentively, we got back to her house and she offered her bed to me, i accepted and she offered me some pajamas to change into but she couldnt find any i mistakenly locked the door and let mark back up stair and he took my spot on her bed but he convinced her to move to the middle so that it would be less gay. i woke up in the middle of the night because it was so hott. she told me it would be, and i went to my car and fell asleep. i was going to drive but she had my keys and i couldnt find them. so at 8 the next morn, i found them and took off, and i posted a stautus on facebook saying that i was thinbking of some someone who i ate with. it was melanie but i think debbie mistook it as her so now she thinks that im a stalker. since when does having breakfast with someone qualify someone else as a stalker? ohh well.. ill think twice before doing that again.