I was lying alone, looking at the ceiling, thinking about you and I guess that’s when it happened. I began to lose control of myself. My emotions started eating away at me, my essence, my everything.   I was lying there, wondering if you’d ever come back for me. Did you ever think of me like I thought of you? Did you ever find yourself wondering what could have been, the way I wondered e... [+]

I was lying alone, looking at the ceiling, thinking about you and I guess that’s when it happened. I began to lose control of myself. My emotions started eating away at me, my essence, my everything.

I was lying there, wondering if you’d ever come back for me. Did you ever think of me like I thought of you? Did you ever find yourself wondering what could have been, the way I wondered every few hours when I thought I’d finally forgotten you?

Why, I wondered, could I not let you go? What did you do to me? How did you change me? How did you make me lose myself? The answers never came, and I lay in bed, looking at the ceiling.

The emptiness began settling over me. I was alone. The world was quiet because despair is louder than the world. I began floating. Floating through the memories of you and I. The happy sad excitement flew by in a flash. I am still here in the despair filled world.

What is worth this much pain? My heart is bursting in my chest. I can feel it, I know it.

This answer? It came easily. Love.
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