[Updated on April 9, 2007] "it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends. you'll still go bed every night going over every detail, & wondering what you did wrong, or how you could've misunderstood. & how in the hell, for that brief moment, you could've thought you were happy. & sometimes, you even convince yourself that he'll see the light, & show up at your door."